Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas of love



That was my Christmas morning which spent at a service invited by Jeanette, really enjoyed the love story. (More photos will be uploading once Yiling send me)
Fun and laughter all the way, after 3 days of facing the 4 walls.
And there's SPU gathering on Sunday, hope to see you there! (:

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

It's not the time yet

(edit)

Hate Decemeber 2009.
Plans canceled last minute, resulting in me staying home for 3 whole days.
There are some other reasons too. You will know the reason when you are supposed to know.
If not, get lost.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

I know, it has never been fair at all.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

The greatest irony of love

Okay, this may sound cheesy, but i got it in an email today and i thought it was blog worthy...and it's very meaningful. A must to read...

The greatest irony of love:

Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationship tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger.

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In a game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What's important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not a part of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn't lover you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time; though the hurting there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you; that's why it's called falling in love, because you don't need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a singe caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person of you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reached for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feeling is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but not to stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain.
Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them them the freedom: whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only when then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.


Although it's pretty wordy but...have you see the light??

Saturday, December 19, 2009

In the club


I love the lyrics. It is a Korean song, but it has an English version!

so now i have to try to find myself again
so now have to try to believe that i can
heal myself from all of your lies, break myself from your eyes
but everything you've said stayed inside

still I'm holding promises you have made but never kept
but now all that you gave, your time, even your name
slowly I'm burning them away
you'll be sorry when you see me, it wont be the same me
taking myself to a place where i can be the way i used to be.

Hmmm...

Today is a long long day

Nothing is going well lately. My skills on ulty is deteriorating rapidly, cannot even catch a simple throw from by teammates. Hm.
18 Dec was quite a...memorable day? A lot of things had happened just in 1 day, 24 hours, 1440 minutes and 86400 seconds. And it had changed me mentally, physically, emotionally and totally. Everything had gone back to the norm where it all had never happened before.
Questioning myself, asking myself what happened? What had gone wrong?
Full of why-s questions too, and the frustrating thing is, i cannot figure out why and i will never know the answers. Hm. I fathom it all takes time.


Disappointments and disappointments again. :\
Still wishing...

Friday, December 18, 2009

A day to remember

I'm sad. :\