Cause we are golden

On the track with oncoming train

2012-01-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

If you can't tolerate my worst, you don't deserve my best.

Change for the better,

change for the right reason,

change for the right decision.

Being a human sucks sometimes...

I cant believe how forgetful and careless i am. Self-loathing myself right now, grrrrr!

Today is a bad bad day.

For safe keeping

2012-01-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

Genting trip '11

2012-01-29T23:09:00.001+08:00

Don’t worry. He’ll miss you. You’re the best he could get and he blew it. Don’t let him make you think for one second that it was your fault. It’s not. He screwed up, and you did absolutley nothing wrong. You gave him your heart and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn’t. And honestly he’s not mature enough. He’s not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you in every spare second he could, but he didn’t and now he’s gone. But don’t you cry, Sweetie.Don’t call him telling him you miss him. Don’t IM him, don’t message him, don’t comment him, don’t talk to him in the hallways, just pretend like you don’t care, because, well, you don’t. And don’t be surprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake, and if you want to, go with him again, but make him work for you. Don’t be his doormat. Don’t let him the first time he rings the bell, make him come back every day until you trust him enough. If he doesn’t come back after a couple of tries, just let him go, but if he comes back every day, then he’s worth it, trust me. He’s worth it.

Via eletheowl

Unappreciated

2012-01-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling.... indescribable....sad now. I don't know what word to describe how sad i am.
Always not being cherish by the ppl i love.
List them as my first few priorities, but i'm always the last few of theirs.
No, i do not want this.

Suck it up, Joan.

xx

Go forth

2012-01-27T23:50:00.001+08:00

Hello folks!

Since the day i got my iphone, i have never stop snapping pictures..........of myself! kekeke!

And since this is my blog, i shall post pictures of my face up! Don't judge! Teehee!

And i'm trying to blog properly and not just pictures and captions okay...

I may be away from blogging since i have like 6 submissions and presentation next week and 2 presentations the following week!

After which is LAST EXAMS!

This is really bitter before sweet, after exams will be LIBERATION!

Look kind of fake due to the lighting and effect! Nawwww!

AND ABIT PAK JIAO! T.T

This is better right, keke!

My complexion looks good~ fake la fake la!

Idk why i took this picture and never delete it -.-

Apart from my faces, we bought poker cards in school and played blackjack in class, Timothy kept asking me to play and i bet with 10cents! Zoe and me got ban-luck! Although it's only 10cents, but it felt kinda good winning. Hiak!

*play small small la*

Back to self-portraits:

Quality of front camera is not that good :/

Took those when i'm back from school today!

Let me explain to you why i have those facial expressions above:

When i was in the train going home from school, i was leaning against the wall, looking at my phone and listening to my iPod. So i didn't take notice anyone boarding the train nor alighting. The train jerked all of sudden, and of course based on humans' reaction, i looked up and see what happened. the moment i looked up, A BLACK BUSH WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! A total shock of my life! At that time, i realized i was surrounded by Indian families of big and small! (Not i don't like Indians, i have Indian friends k)

I quickly squeeze myself out of them frantically! I rmb vividly the bush under the arm belongs to a young girl and i turned and looked at the girl. WTF SRSLY!

It's either you shave or DON'T WEAR SHORT SLEEVE LA!

So the expressions above were what i had after *accidentally* look at the bush from a young girl.

Nononono!

Ignore my icons, hope this pair of skinny legs will motivate me to exercise and tone up my flabbly limps!

*DETERMINE*

.*DIES OFF*

Chinese Lunar New Year

2012-01-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

Every CNY is the same, go around visiting same people...getting angpows.

Baby nephew Ralph

Day 3 of cny, i'm staying at home. All plans were cancelled, boo much!

School starts tmr and another few hectic weeks ahead with submission, presentations and exam!

Nawwww! :/

But well, it will be FREEDOM after everything. *fyi, i h8 the word "freedom"*

20th on the 20th

2012-01-23T02:08:00.000+08:00

My 20th Birthday!!

Beloved folks of mine got the whole set of Polaroid for me when i said i want it!

<3 them!

C3 sisters asked me out for my birthday dinner @ Old Airport Rd and i know they were buying cupcakes for me because they asked me which flavors i want! Hahaha!

These lovely cards they made for me!

Handmade by love - Twelve Cupcakes

Awesome Banana Chocolate cupcake. There are real banana in the cake, the aroma can totally fill up the full mouth!

This is the famous Red Velvet cupcake w cheese on top! The velvet tastes rather common, like a normal cupcake but what makes it tastes different is the cheese cream topping! Cheese tastes like cheese from cheesecake! And i love cheesecake!

This is another awesome flavor! Although it's common but still well-like by all! Oreo flavor!

On my actual birthday, my class actually surprised me with cake and presents when i'm in the class, surprised and touched! Thanks to the whole class for the prezzie and cake, thanks zoe and timo for the undies!

Zoan and Joe <3

Met up with the closest friends during my secondary school life! How much i miss them and in fact, no one changed! All of them are still the same, shoooo nice! ^^

Herbin, Zachary, Khai

Lovely Joy but a bitch too! <3 <3

Yes yes, they surprised me with cake. Like i got surprise again. I do not usually get surprises (sad life) but with all these friends, i got all my surprises!

Drank Erdinger and got red and hot, cooled down and April had to order Daggerbomb for me!

It was specially for me and i have to gulp it down. K, i was feeling hot and red again...

#1- Group shot w April spoiling the photo

#2 - Group shot w Joy spoiling the photo

Wasn't supposed to post these 2 group photos up but other than these 2, no more group shot already!

So, i decided to post both of them up! Kekeke!

Zachary and i know this guy since primary school! He's single and available now!! ^^

This is Khaliesah, a twin sister of Khai! Look alike huh and she's pretttty! (:

Fav girls! <3

Fav guys! <3

We shall have some gathering again, this coming sat?? ^^

Monday ~ Wednesday

2012-01-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

Tuesday:

Celebrated my classmate's 20th birthday! Look at his wide smile!

Sunflowers of my class

The C-Boy! (Inside joke! haha!)

Today:

I got my birthday gift from my folks!! Wooooohoooo! <3<3<3

Cutttttttte albums!

Kinship will never leave

2012-01-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

Whenever i go to bonnyboxy, i can't stand the twist i did in the top photo of the previous post. It's like Last Warning for myself x_x

Was back for ZD training ytd and it was fun perspiring and burning my fats! Hopefully the team stays the same throughout, with fun teammates!

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Had dinner with the family today and was suggesting to dad to try something new and not always eating local delicacies. Been to some western restaurants and trying out their food. So today, we went to Astons!

Coincidentally wore the same Mango tee with mom!!

Dad's mini expresso and the epic faces we had when the espresso came, it's DAMN MINI, worse still, it's only half filled. Dad was still talking about when we are home!

Mine: Prime Ribeye

Dad: BBQ chicken w his riceeeeee (a must to have staple food for every meal)

Mom: Hictory Chicken and her coleslaw (must have vege)

Bro: Prime Sirloin

NOT counting down to 20th for my 20th!

xx

Vroom zoom

2012-01-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

Finally get to online after 3-4 days. Hectic week, have been staying back in school to do project and when i reached home, it's already 10pm. There was once i didn't see my dad for 2 days and he complained. Oops!

During the role playing for negotiation tutorial

Finally got to get on the wheels after getting my licence in Oct, kinda rusty and my friend was super naggy and scared while i drove. I understand that he was scared because imma female driver and hes my first passenger!

Beautiful watch from Mr Incredible 2 years back

Gotten a new necklace since i lost the one i bought in Hongkong when i was trying clothes in the fitting room and i freaking left it there! I was so upset and angry with myself. >:(

Kinda looking forward to training tmr, miss those people there(:

Random

2012-01-12T01:07:00.002+08:00

Random days with photos taken randomly...

When we finally printed our Final Year Project report and successfully handed in on time, it's like something so important had been done.

SP Open House 2012 and we were the student counsellors that supposed to sell our course and make it sound interesting. It is interesting, some way or another.

Got hotdog buns which replaced cake for Timothy's 20th bday! Innovative idea with the buns and candles!

Refurnished living room with new coat of paint and wall art to enhance the whole new feeling. Trees with birds and fallen floating leaves...

K, just did a random-kinda-long-caption for the photos.

Tata, xx.

Self protraits

2012-01-05T09:54:00.003+08:00

Was testing out the new photography apps!

My face just before i sleep, that explains the retainers too!

Half dead

2012-01-04T22:20:00.001+08:00

Oh, i can blog using iphone now! Just download the blogger application.

For these few days i never even open my google chrome whenever I'm online. Start up my lappie, document for report are already on my toolbar. Type, read, type again, scroll up and down, cant find the part i wna edit, scroll the pages until i have lazy eyes. Butt gets glued onto the chair the moment i sit down.
I wont even be blogging now if not for this application!

Well, I'm omw home now and after washing up, i need start war again!

Till then~

xx

Over the years...

2012-01-02T17:07:00.002+08:00

Countdown to 2012:

Met those peeps at Just Acia for dinner and then off to Marina Square for pool and then watch fireworks and countdown!

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House painting on the 31st of Dec and sticking the wall art on 1st Jan! We painted the living room over the years! Hahaha!

This is the progress:

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Went to Changi Airport to send Jon off to Harbin for his OITP!

Got my cheesecake crave fixed! Sour cream cheesecake from TCC!

My art piece

Leon's airport fashion HAHAHAH!

Annyeong!

I will be doing my mission - duration: 2 months! Hwaiting! (:

But you won't know what the future brings

2012-01-01T00:02:00.041+08:00

One resolution i have made, and try always to keep, is this:

To rise above the little things

She has been through her happiest and the saddest moment of her life in 2011. The gap between the emotions is heaven and earth apart. Toughest moments had left her barely breathing and those days were torturous. Everyone and everything will have to move on and forward. No one will be left behind time. Time will solve mystery. Once the grey clouds subsides, sunshine will shine those lil' butts and rainbow over your heads.
Everything will be alright, she keeps telling herself. She can do it she can do it. Once she gets over it, she will be back. But it won't be easy, she knows. The days are counting and the time are ticking, it will only get better and better...

Leap of faith

2011-12-30T01:30:00.002+08:00

Caught The Darkest Hour today and my expectation of this movie is higher than what it is.

Questions given but not answered and the ending is like not the ending...

Luckily i didn't watch it on 3D, or maybe it will be nicer for 3D?

Taken from iphone front camera, the quality is not as good as the back camera!
Sobz~

Going shopping with mama tmr yipee!
Oh, and i needa do up a new year resolution soon!

xx

Out of the lil' red dot

2011-12-29T02:04:00.001+08:00

Mom dragged me to accompany her to Malaysia today.

Let the pictures do the talking...

First stop: Lunch @ Kinashi Restaurant for Japanese cuisine

Chawamushi

My omelette rice w jap curry! Love jap curry!!

Couz's cold noodle

Some tempura sides w rice

Walked around City Square, tried all footwear and got myself a new pair of flats! Yay!

Spend like free on fooooooood, because of the currency (divide by 2), so everything seems cheap...

Wanted to have dinner here, but in the ebd we left because the place is kinda...dirty.

Bought this before going home. Mini snowflake wangwang!

#fatdieme #seriously

XMAS'11

2011-12-26T15:59:00.001+08:00

Met up with the spu peeps for movie and dinner! We Bought A Zoo is a nice movie, inspiring and meaningful! Go and watch it if you want!

We were contemplating whether to stay out becos of the last train home, and coincidentally, Hongna and me overheard some girls in the toilet saying "LUCKILY TODAY'S TRAIN SERVICE IS EXTENDED TO 1AM", so we happily told the others that we could stay till 1am to catch the last train.

Walked to EsplaNADE then to Helix Bridge to The Shoppes, and then Raffles Link to take train home.

We were wondering why there was not a single soul seen at Raffles Link at that hour. We were strolling, talking loudly like as though we were the Running Mans because no one was around except for us.

Shutter closed and the game starts now!

HAHAHAHA!

Finally, we reached the Raffles control station and you know what...the shutter was freaking closed! And it showed "TRAIN SERVICE ENDED"

All our eyes were o.o

K, another alternative, bus to somewhere out of the CBD area and cab home!

We walked from Raffles to Chinatown...and flagged the cab,

and you know what, the surcharges are only from Monday to Saturday. ._.

Great.....!

But well, it's a fun night to be with friends, especially the crazy ones!

xx

Choked-up-words found while tumblring - All i wna say

2011-12-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

Zoom past~

2011-12-23T22:17:00.001+08:00

Hohoho, xmas is coming and i just had my last xmas shopping!

What i had bought:

For mom: a wristlet so she can use it when she goes marketing.

For bro: a doggy piggy bank (his zodiac is dog) and a pen cos i know he needs pen now!

For dad: wanted to buy polo tee for dad but mom told me let dad picks the one he likes.

What i had got:

From dad: notebook cooler for my lappie!

From Qiqi: a NIKE wallet!

From Nana: Hand made xmas card! <3

From myself: a scheduler as usual and i got myself iphone 4s too! *sweat*

Oh ya, i had received movie vouchers and tickets too! Whoohoo!

Movie voucher from doing survey and movie tickets from participating in poly50 photo contest and the contest was participated by my personal tutor and not me ._.

Received both on this month!

Now i can't wait for everything to pass quickly.
School reopens, my birthday, cny, valentine's, last exams, END OF POLY!
Lemme get my graduation trip pretty pleaseeeeee and hopefully parents let me go to a place i always want to go when i turn 20!
Pray hard!

xx

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2011-12-21T00:28:00.000+08:00

Hate myself for getting reminded of you,

those hidden photos, videos and many places.

I should get on with my life now,

yes i'm trying very hard to.

Although i'm determine to do so,

something always pull me back to the start.

And always, I have to do it all over again,

feel so helpless, feel so loveless,

all over again.

Second Home

2011-12-18T23:54:00.001+08:00

Away to my second home for 3 days and i doubt anyone will realize that i'm missing for the past 3 days. Wells, that's my life. ~.~

One of my lunches - Kenny Rogers! Super awesome with mac&cheese.

Parents went to other restaurant for lunch and complained theirs costed a bomb and the food were terrible. Lucky the younger us went for this alternative!

Got my starbucks crave fixed.

Ironically, i ordered green tea frap at such a cool-climate-place while i usually order green tea latte in Singapore!

My pretty mama!

Couz!

Finally bought this chocolate fondue dragonfruits thingy just before i head back! Kept asking for this the whole trip! Teehee!

But the chocolate harden half an hour later! NAWWWWW!

Got these 2 pretty colours nail polish!

Nothing much to describe about this trip, as you see, i went back to my "second home".

Some changes here and there, but the crowd was still overwhelming especially on the Saturday because apparently Andy Hui was there for his concert.

Things were still as expensive or rather more expensive now as compared to years ago.

Now i'm back to this sad world~

And need to complete my FYP report asap!

Wild thoughts

2011-12-15T20:18:00.000+08:00

Recently, Dave posted a link on facebook which made me think a lot, to the extent that i even teared.

I felt that i treat myself so much worse than i should be, and i start to question myself - do i deserve this?

Quoted from the link:

Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while. You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well. You shouldn't be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears. The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.

Every time if i feel emotional, i will go to this website. Do take a look, if you are feeling as heartbroken as me, but the broken pieces are all hidden...inside.

30 things to stop doing to yourself

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Anyway, was roaming around Orchard with Huilin.

Fareast - H&M - 313 - Forever21 - Toa Payoh - Supper @ Old Airport Road - Homesweethome!

Love days like this where i can walk around with friend/s, snap photos, do silly things...

Report

2011-12-13T18:30:00.000+08:00

Just started on typing my FYP report and i found out the limitation of my vocabulary bank.

It sucks srsly. T.T

Overdue photos taken when i accompanied Jinwan for her blog shop's photo shoot!

meow~

D to the double O, with J x OO and ends it with N

2011-12-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

So lemme tell you what i have been doing lately...........stalking on YOONDOOJOON!

Ahhhhhhhhhh~!

Even changed my phone's wallpaper!

Teehee! Too cute~

His imperfect teeth make him so perfect!

#1

2011-12-12T21:01:00.001+08:00

Hello there,
I've never delete any posts from bonnyboxy before.
Now i've deleted all cos i'm ready to face the future and have a fresh start!

And now everyone can read my blog (:

xx