Alone time

Because curiosity consumed her, she wanted to know his past without asking him. And now, she is drowning. 2 steps forward, 1 step back. Maybe he just need to grab her hand, pull her to him and tell her, "Everything will be alright."

Before she starts pushing people away again, save her.

Goodbye my love

After 3years, friends and people around me still like to ask, "if he comes back, will you consider/get back together with him?"

Although it's been so long, i still get flustered when that question is being thrown to me. Most of the time i will brush the question by changing topic because honestly, i do not have an answer either.

Haven't i move on? Yes i have, i'm moving forward. Just that i'm missing this one more step to get everything over entirely. And i definitely need to find that step.

Also, i know he won't come back.

Learn

"But a day came where I woke up and realized I wanted to see them and talk to them not because I longed for them, but because they were people in my life who once meant everything. I say it often, but you cannot punish someone for not wanting you. You can’t shut someone out of your life and hate them because you are not the one that they chose. You can’t scold and ridicule and condemn. You have to accept and move forward and understand. You have to learn."

分手後不要做朋友

刪掉你手機的訊息 清空你專屬的抽屜

如果可以的話 多想 從來沒認識過你

置身少了你的空景 何時不再觸景傷情

雨滴和淚滴 總是會混在一起

你愛我 你傷我 不算什麼

反正我 絕不說 我多難過

有你的我 沒有你的我 往後日子都得過

你內疚 你難受 別告訴我

免得我 又搞錯 當作承諾

諒解背後的顫抖 誰關心過

我不堅強 分手後不要做朋友

我不善良 不想看你牽她的手

該怎麼走 就怎麼走 

不必那麼努力演灑脫輕鬆

就算寂寞 分手也不要做朋友

就算宇宙 早就安排好這結果

你曾經牢牢地 在我生命裡附著

我要如何去假裝 我沒有愛過

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終於不必為你掛心 終於多點愛給自己 

好過不好過 都已跟你沒關係 

你愛我 你傷我 不算什麼

反正我 絕不說 我多難過 

有你的我 沒有你的我 往後日子都得過

我太愛了 分手後做不了朋友

淚流乾了 還洗不掉那些溫柔

不要蹉跎 不要聯絡

就讓我安安靜靜走完以後

我忘不了 我們曾不只是朋友

從今以後 思念再走不到盡頭

你曾經緊緊的 把我擁在你懷中

我要如何去假裝 你沒有愛過

梁文音

Can't leave

Beautiful song, amazing voices.

I really can't...leave.

xx

Definitely; YOLO

Life is so much more than being miserable and be tortured by setbacks. One setback after another, headache problem arising once the previous one subsided. I'm starting to see things at a clearer view, perhaps is me being on the sidelines, or maybe I'm getting out of my comfort zone. "You don't need a million things to be happy, you just need that one and only." So what's that one thing? You (and I) will have to figure it out yourself (myself). Really beginning to appreciate little things in my life which makes so much significance than it seems. Getting to know a bunch of shit-stirrers definitely help alot. Although they can be so annoying at times (when they flood my whatsapp and stir my shit), they brought smiles and laughter to my life (up till now at least).

Ended my first few tests in RMIT, glad that they were over. Have to keep the quick pace in this new environment and definitely aiming higher.

xx

That's what i'm gonna do

Oh, seconds, hours, so many days You know what you want but how long can you wait? Every moment lasts forever When you feel you've lost your way And what if my chances were already gone I started believing that I could be wrong But you gave me one good reason To fight and never walk away So here I am still holding on

The wait will kill, but it's determined to be there, somewhere hidden in my mind. I will visit the fun-land, explore the funs, meet new people, talk smartly, think wittingly, make the best decisions along the way, no doubt it will be harder than it used to be. Accepting whatever comes forth, expecting the least as well as the worst. Maybe it will drift away, maybe it will stay for long because there's no boundary.

And who can foresee the future? Fate can.

xx

A pat on the shoulder

It was time to stop and take a breather for awhile. She had been walking and running nonstop and she's finally getting lethargic. Being the chaser, the runner, additional of the pull and push theory, worn her out completely. It isn't simple to have such high endurance limit during a race where neither of the parties are willing to give up.It's okay if she didn't get what she wants. It's okay if she lost. It's okay that everything ended up with unexpectedly adverse results. Because as long as she tried, and she knew she had done her best, and all of it will be derogated.

Love is an emotion that can be so powerful yet so vulnerable. It can send one high up on cloud nine, at the same time it can banish one to hell. Love isn't just liking or loving someone, it is much more than that. Trust is needed to be earned, and it doesn't appear magically. Letting go of something so dear, can be one form of love. Certainly, you would want that person to be happy, so what's the point of holding on when that person is struggling to breathe?

She has made up her mind.

Heart wrenching, yet relieved.

xx